Fat experiences

So, I'm an 18 year old boy, and I've been pretty thin my whole life. My BMI has been 20-21 for as long as I can remember, and my weight has plateaued at around 135 for a year or two now... but over the past month or two I've gained about 20 pounds. It kinda went all over, but this is the first time my belly has noticably spilled out a bit over my jeans.

I've always considered myself just a fat admirer, but when the scale hit 155 and my BMI score just barely hit the threshold of "overweight,," I dunno, something incredibly alluring washed over me.
I've been overeating a lot in the last week or so and it just feels so good... I love stuffing myself and playing with my newfound pudge, it feels wonderful ^^

My biggest worries are, of course, societal impacts and judgement from peers and family, as well as health and stamina for stuff I love like hiking. I've already felt myself slowing down a bit, which is a little arousing, but I don't know how to feel about it.

It feels so new and scary and sorta wrong in a way, but feeling my belly grow little by little genuinely makes me blush, I've started rubbing my softening tummy while driving and hiding in private places, and I keep finding ways to stuff just a few extra calories in me before the end of the day

I'm somewhat in the same boat. If I lived alone away from everyone I knew then I would 100% just give in and do it, but because I'm so close to everyone I just don't feel super comfortable giving in.

Gahh, exactly. That's the most painful thing, there doesn't seem to be a way to wipe the slate clean for family and friends. If it weren't for that barrier I think I'd be WAY more willing to drop everything and just put on weight like crazy.

Hahah, thank you!! I appreciate that a lot actually, especially from someone with a lot more meat on their bones than I ^^
You're totally right about the corona gain too,, I have a lot of friends who are packing on quite a few pounds from just staying idle all day for months on end, and I don't think I'd stick out too much for doing the same.

Honestly, that encouragement helps a lot, and sparks that naiive curiosity in me like crazy,, so feel free not to hold back!! I guess maybe a bit of heavy cream and another 10 or 20 pounds couldn't hurt anyone~

I know someone whose nickname used to be "Bones" because everyone knew him as the skinny one. One day he got sick of it, told everyone his years of being "Bones" was over and put on a lot of weight. He waited or ignored them while everyone adjusted and got over their shock, and now they just use his real name. You can change someone's "normal" if the new normal makes you happy.

I've done it.

Your age sort of helps out here too. A lot of people start gaining once they're out of high school, between habit and diet changes and just hormones. That said, if you gain now, ots almost expected. You'll probably still get comments and whatnot, but no ones really going to question it.

As far as the slowing down thing...youll lose a step here and there, but its possible to gain and still do stuff. I'm about 80lbs heavier than I was In high school and college and I can still hike, run, lift, etc. I get winded faster sure, but I'm not losing out. That said, my gain wasn't intentional.

Enjoy it. Lean into it. This is the exact time to explore what gets you going and once you accept it, the world opens up and everything feels better.

Thank you so much for the reply!!! I guess it just started to creep up a little, haha
I won't lie, I do overeat sometimes just because the feeling and idea of putting on pounds here and there by stuffing myself feels *so* good. I haven't really seen any of my friends recently because of said pandemic, but if they've put on weight too?? I honestly might just let go~

You make a great point!!! Thank you so much for the insight, I think I forget sometimes that new normal is a thing that happens all the time - not to mention the era we're living in now. If stuff is already changing so rapidly, why should I be any exception? 😊

The idea that it's kinda just an *expected* thing is pretty hot, I won't even lie to you
I'm really glad you don't lose out on physical stuff!!! It's not like I'm running marathons or anything, I just happen to really like the mountains. I'm already not anywhere near as fit as I was pre-pandemic for a multitude of reasons; the only part where it *doesn't* show yet it my weight, ironically enough.

*Lean* into it... I like that idea a *lot.* Thank you so so much for your comment, this made my night honestly 😊😊😊

You're right!!! Especially in the US, we live in a pretty fat country,, most of the people I see walking around have a fair bit of pudge and wideness, even if they're young adults like me. It's pretty comforting, I feel like I'd end up blending in pretty well~